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Sunday, June 3, 2012

Life and Death Is What I Battle With

LIFE
















Trying not to think about the negative
Working on the positive
But positive seems to lead to negative so I try to balance it
My Libra scales are talented 
Life and Death is what I battle with 
Because I'm living to die and time is going mighty quick
So I'm doing things for the hell of it 
Trynna get the best of it                                
Thinking if I do this death would come slower shit
Not realizing that I'm making life more quick
Cause everyday that goes by is a life lived 
Everyday that goes by is death living to 
Not knowing if I'm waking up to see a day or maybe two
So each day I wake up I thank the man above
That I'm not six feet below
Without him I wouldn't feel the pain the pleasure the hate and the love 
Showing me that in life we have to have both positive and negative 
And no matter what we must follow it 
So I'm going to live my life until Death swallows it

DEATH
                                                              

Monday, October 3, 2011

Update !!!!!

So its been a long time since I've been on here and that's because i have been taking care a lot of things as far as making smart life decisions to be able to make myself comfortable. I'm back now but based on timing it'll determine how much i will be posting through out the week. But here's an usate:
   For the past couple of months i have been trying to get myself back on track with school and that has become a success for me putting less of a burden on me. I have also made long term and short term future and present goals that will help me and i will be sure to achieve them. I have started working on the Tru3b3auty Entertainment part as well, and this i am looking for more support and just trying to network with more people in order to expand it.  So far so good I have choose the people that have help me begin this entertainment real wisely and they have been major support as well, they are not just my friends or apart of the team they have also become family. i have a very small circle but i know that people in my circle would be there to support me with anything and everything no matter what.

We all have life goals, and for as long we are living on earth we would be trying to fight to get to these goals or meet them but it will all take little steps, and we would know when these life goals are achieved when we leave this earth happy and knowing that we were able to accomplish something. We must always stay focus and never quit, nothing is easy in life like they say with out struggle there's no success and even when your successful you still have to struggle to keep yourself there.

I am passionate about what i do and sometimes we must sacrifice things in order to get back to what we really want to do in life. I am back and this time i will be consistent with it. Be sure to be on the look out for post.

Thank You everyone for your support.
                         
                                       Tru3b3auty
                                                                     
                                                                   

Sunday, March 20, 2011

ARE THINGS GOING WRONG.....

Somethings are all wrong but can't seem to figure them out
I most stay strong and live with no doubts
People try to push me to the edge thinking that I'm going to fall
But my scales are so balanced so those kind of people just get ignored
I'm striving for nothing but the best
I would never settle for less
I conquered my own life and in it i am blessed
Going through hard roads and hitting rocks but all of that is just a test
See only i know how bad i want it
How bad i will take success and flaunt it
And show the world that i own it
I know my time will come when my life will be done
But i will be there happy cause i kno all that I've done
Until than though while my life is still going
I will never give up til my life is fully showing

Friday, February 11, 2011

Believe to Achieve.....

Climbing up the ladder trying not to fall

 I believe that I can succeed                                                                         
Motivation is my high I don't need no weed
Climbing up the ladder trying not to fall
Failure isn't an option because imma give it my all
Always was a leader other people had to follow
Sorta like a teachers pet, call me a role model
See I look up to life because that's what I'm living
And when life gives up on me ill go straight to heaven
I look up to life cause life teaches a lot
But it's up to you to know when to go and when to stop
Try not to stress but its not that easy 
Realizing life goes by so fast 
Living for everyday but everyday doesn't last 
Because theres a tomorrow and than a day after that 
So each day that goes by is a memory gone flat
Have to stay focus, so I stay undercover 
Yearning for pleasure so success is my lover
Never dream to achieve 
Achieve to believe
Believe to succeed 
To fulfill all your dreams 



Thursday, February 3, 2011

How It Could Be....

See I think about my life and how it is
Sale drugs and my  body
Have to sale drugs and my body just to raise my kids                       
Walking up and down the streets just to make a living 
So my family could have a place to sleep and a toilet to shit in 
Having to see my green veins, and green trees 
Always began and saying please
At nights I always dream that I'm rich and famous 
How I'm a beautiful girl never living in anguish
I wake up and wish all of this was true 
But its just another day same routine to do

See I think about my life and how it use to be
When I was living with my parents so young and pretty
Never thought about no boys cause they were yucky
And the ones that I did talk to well they were lucky 
The days where you could call him your friend and it was nothing sexual
I always held my head high knew I would be successful
Had good and bad times but my life was never stressful

See I think about my life and how it could be 
I wouldn't be doing wrong just to raise my family
It wouldn't be a dream it would be reality 
I could be happy living my life to the fullest
Never would have to lie to myself 
Wouldn't be messing up my body or my health 
But I learned that my life its not how it could be because of me 
Thinking that what I was doing was a good way to start 
I started and never finished
Always followed my heart and not my head 
Now I'm sitting here wishing that I was dead
                                                              
It wouldn't be a dream it would be reality
                                                                                                        



Friday, January 28, 2011

Truth is the trust.....

You can't trust nobody in your life 
Because even the ones that your trust stab you in the back with a sharp knife
You cant even trust, trust because trust forces you to tell the truth
But the truth hurts so you tell a lie 
Trying to move on but this lie that you just told is still in your head
Told this lie to a close friend or the one that lays next to you in bed
But like I said                                                                                    
The truth hurts but you have to tell the truth to gain that trust 
It takes to long to gain that trust because you cant tell the truth
So like a nail its rusts
You still living with the truth but now you have no trust 
See what we fear to realize is that the truth controls the trust 
And as we live our life telling a lie becomes a lust 
We use it for guilty pleasure
Knowing that the truth would set you free 
And be by your side forever
So the next time you want to tell a lie to replace the truth 
Think whether or not will the trust be there for you 
And you will see nothing but NEVER

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Crazy, Insane, and Derange

wake up with blood in my hands

I cry as my mind starts to change 
I'm going crazy you can call it insane                                              
Running away from real
Wishing I can make time stay still 
Dreaming that I want to kill 
I wake up with blood in my hands 
Thinking that my bed bleeds
So I have to change up my sheets not realizing that its really me
Cause when I dream that I kill its me that I'm really killing 
Its like my body is numb so when I do it there's no feeling 
See I cry as my mind starts to change 
I'm going crazy you can call it derange
Dreaming that I'm standing real still in the pouring rain 
I hear voices in my head and they sound real strange
Telling me that my life is easy and I shouldn't complain 
But this strange voice is lying 
Because everyday I wake up I start crying 
Knowing that my life is a living hell and in it I'm slowly dying 
See I cry as my mind starts to change 
I need help feeling nothing but pain 
See I cry as my mind starts to change 
And now its to late, I'm now controlled by the 
Crazy 
Insane
and Derange





Thursday, January 13, 2011

Royal Thoughts.....

Breathing but I'm still out of breathe
Bleeding til its no blood to death
Living til there's no life left                                                                         
Failing but I know I'm the best
Bleeding til its no blood to death

Standing but I'm always falling down
Going straight in life, but life goes round and round 
Dreaming that I'm buried underground
I'm a queen and I deserve the crown 

Crying cause I can't see
Don't know the difference between real and reality
Is reality real or just a fantasy
Moving fast but time is ahead of me
My life is royal so call me your majesty 

Follow my heart instead of my brain
Walking through life lost like theirs nothing to gain
Blood vessels pop in my veins cause I strain
Yes I'm in pain
Just build my castle you've already been trained

Have to guess my next move like a game of charades 
Cut through my soul with a really sharp blade
Happy I'm dead so you have a parade 
Now just call my servants cause my life has been made
Happy I'm Dead so you have a Parade






Monday, January 10, 2011

Til' Death Do Us Part....

Plant my spirit in your soul
When I hear your voice it soothes my soul                                  
I want you to hold on tight don't never let go
Run away with me to a place called far away 
Let me show you that I need you in my own special way 
You can make my heart cry but make sure its tears of joy 
Because I been through the pain and its nothing to enjoy 
The connection so strong that it make my veins bleed
Plant my spirit in your soul like a little seed 
Watch your soul grow my spirit til it gets old
I want us to be a story a story always told
Want everyone to know that your the reason I breathe
Your the reason why I'm here
Your the reason why I see
Your the reason why I call my life reality
Mad me realize that not only people but life can stab you with a knife 
Told me that my wound was deep and that you would help me heal 
That's when I put my life in your hands and called it my will 
I want us to grow together, get old together 
Live like were immortal and call it forever
We are in a love race and its almost our time to start
Just make sure we work together to win until death do us part



Friday, January 7, 2011

No Second Life....

Time is freezing
My heart is gasping for air you can hear it wheezing
It's like I'm playing basketball with no ball
Sometimes I feel like I'm on this earth for no reason
But I'm living for a reason
Things always changing in my life like the four seasons
Instead of Summer, Winter, Spring, and fall
I have happiness, Pain, confidence, and more 
Its like I'm playing basketball with no ball
Walking through the school hearing noises but theirs no one in the hall

You see I have a voice in my head
Angel or Devil I don't know but its always haunting me 
Not trying to tell me whats right or wrong, just talking about my life 
Its driving me insane, I cant sleep at night 
People calling me crazy I'm starting to think they right
Thinking I can see the world, when I was born with no sight 

Trying to figure out the facts of life when life is all in the facts
We live to die on this earth and cant never turn back
Cant get second chances
The market doesn't go around selling second life enhancers
You see I have a voice in my head