Believe to Achieve.....

Climbing up the ladder trying not to fall

 I believe that I can succeed                                                                         

Motivation is my high I don't need no weed

Climbing up the ladder trying not to fall

Failure isn't an option because imma give it my all

Always was a leader other people had to follow

Sorta like a teachers pet, call me a role model

See I look up to life because that's what I'm living

And when life gives up on me ill go straight to heaven

I look up to life cause life teaches a lot

But it's up to you to know when to go and when to stop

Try not to stress but its not that easy 

Realizing life goes by so fast 

Living for everyday but everyday doesn't last 

Because theres a tomorrow and than a day after that 

So each day that goes by is a memory gone flat

Have to stay focus, so I stay undercover 

Yearning for pleasure so success is my lover

Never dream to achieve 

Achieve to believe

Believe to succeed 

To fulfill all your dreams 

How It Could Be....

See I think about my life and how it is

Sale drugs and my  body

Have to sale drugs and my body just to raise my kids                       

Walking up and down the streets just to make a living 

So my family could have a place to sleep and a toilet to shit in 

Having to see my green veins, and green trees 

Always began and saying please

At nights I always dream that I'm rich and famous 

How I'm a beautiful girl never living in anguish

I wake up and wish all of this was true 

But its just another day same routine to do

See I think about my life and how it use to be

When I was living with my parents so young and pretty

Never thought about no boys cause they were yucky

And the ones that I did talk to well they were lucky 

The days where you could call him your friend and it was nothing sexual

I always held my head high knew I would be successful

Had good and bad times but my life was never stressful

See I think about my life and how it could be 

I wouldn't be doing wrong just to raise my family

It wouldn't be a dream it would be reality 

I could be happy living my life to the fullest

Never would have to lie to myself 

Wouldn't be messing up my body or my health 

But I learned that my life its not how it could be because of me 

Thinking that what I was doing was a good way to start 

I started and never finished
Always followed my heart and not my head 

Now I'm sitting here wishing that I was dead
                                                              

It wouldn't be a dream it would be reality

                                                                                                        

Truth is the trust.....

You can't trust nobody in your life 

Because even the ones that your trust stab you in the back with a sharp knife

You cant even trust, trust because trust forces you to tell the truth

But the truth hurts so you tell a lie 

Trying to move on but this lie that you just told is still in your head

Told this lie to a close friend or the one that lays next to you in bed

But like I said                                                                                    

The truth hurts but you have to tell the truth to gain that trust 

It takes to long to gain that trust because you cant tell the truth

So like a nail its rusts

You still living with the truth but now you have no trust 

See what we fear to realize is that the truth controls the trust 

And as we live our life telling a lie becomes a lust 

We use it for guilty pleasure

Knowing that the truth would set you free 

And be by your side forever

So the next time you want to tell a lie to replace the truth 

Think whether or not will the trust be there for you 

And you will see nothing but NEVER

Crazy, Insane, and Derange

wake up with blood in my hands

I cry as my mind starts to change 

I'm going crazy you can call it insane                                              

Running away from real

Wishing I can make time stay still 

Dreaming that I want to kill 

I wake up with blood in my hands 

Thinking that my bed bleeds

So I have to change up my sheets not realizing that its really me

Cause when I dream that I kill its me that I'm really killing 

Its like my body is numb so when I do it there's no feeling 

See I cry as my mind starts to change 

I'm going crazy you can call it derange

Dreaming that I'm standing real still in the pouring rain 

I hear voices in my head and they sound real strange

Telling me that my life is easy and I shouldn't complain 

But this strange voice is lying 

Because everyday I wake up I start crying 

Knowing that my life is a living hell and in it I'm slowly dying 

See I cry as my mind starts to change 

I need help feeling nothing but pain 

See I cry as my mind starts to change 

And now its to late, I'm now controlled by the 

Crazy 

Insane

and Derange

Royal Thoughts.....

Breathing but I'm still out of breathe

Bleeding til its no blood to death

Living til there's no life left                                                                         

Failing but I know I'm the best

Bleeding til its no blood to death

Standing but I'm always falling down

Going straight in life, but life goes round and round 

Dreaming that I'm buried underground

I'm a queen and I deserve the crown 

Crying cause I can't see

Don't know the difference between real and reality

Is reality real or just a fantasy

Moving fast but time is ahead of me

My life is royal so call me your majesty 

Follow my heart instead of my brain

Walking through life lost like theirs nothing to gain

Blood vessels pop in my veins cause I strain

Yes I'm in pain

Just build my castle you've already been trained

Have to guess my next move like a game of charades 

Cut through my soul with a really sharp blade

Happy I'm dead so you have a parade 

Now just call my servants cause my life has been made

Happy I'm Dead so you have a Parade

Til' Death Do Us Part....

Plant my spirit in your soul

When I hear your voice it soothes my soul                                  

I want you to hold on tight don't never let go

Run away with me to a place called far away 

Let me show you that I need you in my own special way 

You can make my heart cry but make sure its tears of joy 

Because I been through the pain and its nothing to enjoy 

The connection so strong that it make my veins bleed

Plant my spirit in your soul like a little seed 

Watch your soul grow my spirit til it gets old

I want us to be a story a story always told

Want everyone to know that your the reason I breathe

Your the reason why I'm here

Your the reason why I see

Your the reason why I call my life reality

Mad me realize that not only people but life can stab you with a knife 

Told me that my wound was deep and that you would help me heal 

That's when I put my life in your hands and called it my will 

I want us to grow together, get old together 

Live like were immortal and call it forever

We are in a love race and its almost our time to start

Just make sure we work together to win until death do us part

No Second Life....

Time is freezing

My heart is gasping for air you can hear it wheezing

It's like I'm playing basketball with no ball

Sometimes I feel like I'm on this earth for no reason

But I'm living for a reason

Things always changing in my life like the four seasons

Instead of Summer, Winter, Spring, and fall

I have happiness, Pain, confidence, and more 

Its like I'm playing basketball with no ball

Walking through the school hearing noises but theirs no one in the hall

You see I have a voice in my head

Angel or Devil I don't know but its always haunting me 

Not trying to tell me whats right or wrong, just talking about my life 

Its driving me insane, I cant sleep at night 

People calling me crazy I'm starting to think they right

Thinking I can see the world, when I was born with no sight 

Trying to figure out the facts of life when life is all in the facts

We live to die on this earth and cant never turn back

Cant get second chances

The market doesn't go around selling second life enhancers

You see I have a voice in my head

Blind To Reality.....

A diamond in the ruff                                                                          

crying every night because you don't know who to trust

been hurt so many times

Diamond in the Ruff

Punched in the eye til they went blind

Now I cant see the world

What they call reality 

Have to picture it all in my mentality

My pictures become a fantasy 

A fantasy I cant fulfill

Dreaming that I was walking up a hill

A hill that never ended

Realizing that my fantasy was my dream and it was never ending

You call it a cycle I call it mess

Thinking why is my brain still living but my body is at rest

Its like I'm paralyzed from the neck down

Looking for another body to use as a rebound

Rebound meaning life

Cause my life has divorced me I am no longer its wife

But how can I look when I cant see

Trying to get with positive, but getting abused my negativity

You see its hard

Trying to shuffle but you keep getting the same colors and numbers in your deck of cards

Replacing your life for another is impossible

The ratio for you living on this earth forever is improbable

So live your life to the fullest like its unstoppable

No regrets....

A time in my life where I live with no regrets

Been through a lot of negativity but it was all a test

Sometimes I passed, sometimes I failed

At the end of it all I still prevailed 

I will never be gone

When I die I'm still going to be here because my spirit so strong

I want to become a legacy

Show the world that you can succeed

Be whatever you want to be 

All it takes is focus and Faith

Envision your power go beyond the 50 states

Do it all and more no matter how long it takes

Live life to love life that's the motto

Make as many wishes as you want but remember there's only one genie in a bottle

So achieve these wishes and be wise

You can face these wishes look them right in the eyes

I'm on a battle field and I call it life

Getting hit from different directions with swords and knives

I get cut a couple times but I still keep going

Knowing that at the end of this battle to the top is where I'm going 

Living this life with no regrets

Showing the world you are the best as it gets

Life, You

When people say they hate you they really love you

They realize that they can't never come above you

You make it to the top and they smile in your face say they adore you

Knowing back in the day they did nothing but scorn you

So when they begin to talk they do nothing but bore you

See no one can control you

Can't let people in your life cause they would do nothing but disown you

In the beginning its always great

But then you let ride out until its to late

Late to realize that they're no good

Getting killed by your own friend after you said ya was cool in the hood

We all make mistakes

Some of us learn from them no matter how long it takes

So choose your path wisely know where you want to go 

Even though we only have one life you will realize how much that one life will grow