How It Could Be....

See I think about my life and how it is

Sale drugs and my  body

Have to sale drugs and my body just to raise my kids                       

Walking up and down the streets just to make a living 

So my family could have a place to sleep and a toilet to shit in 

Having to see my green veins, and green trees 

Always began and saying please

At nights I always dream that I'm rich and famous 

How I'm a beautiful girl never living in anguish

I wake up and wish all of this was true 

But its just another day same routine to do

See I think about my life and how it use to be

When I was living with my parents so young and pretty

Never thought about no boys cause they were yucky

And the ones that I did talk to well they were lucky 

The days where you could call him your friend and it was nothing sexual

I always held my head high knew I would be successful

Had good and bad times but my life was never stressful

See I think about my life and how it could be 

I wouldn't be doing wrong just to raise my family

It wouldn't be a dream it would be reality 

I could be happy living my life to the fullest

Never would have to lie to myself 

Wouldn't be messing up my body or my health 

But I learned that my life its not how it could be because of me 

Thinking that what I was doing was a good way to start 

I started and never finished
Always followed my heart and not my head 

Now I'm sitting here wishing that I was dead
                                                              

It wouldn't be a dream it would be reality